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"On a windswept hill by a billowing sea, my destiny sits and waits for me".....R Brout

Friday, February 29, 2008

WHEN LEAP YEAR COMES AGAIN


WHEN LEAP YEAR COMES AGAIN

It does not occur often
It does not happen much
It's seldom even talked about
Except in poems & such;
I watched a man this morning
Hobbling with his cane
And asked myself if he'd be here
When leap year comes again?

Alot can happen in four years
Babies not yet conceived
Kids still fighting in a war
Is so hard to believe;
Baby-boomers who will be
Four more years along
Many elderly living now
Will all be dead and gone.

New inventions, new ideas
New governments in place
When one looks in a mirror
One will see an older face;
Will music still console us?
Will books still be read?
Will we still go to Church
Or sleep in late instead?

We can't all live forever
We all are going to die
It's just a matter of when
Not where and how and why;
It may not be illegal
It may not be a sin
But I know where I'll be
When leap year comes again.

I'll be the same as today
Loving country songs
Eating fudge and pizza
Trying to sing along;
Hanging out the laundry
While waiting for Spring
Same ol' wonderful life
When leap year comes again.

A LOVELY NIGHTMARE


A LOVELY NIGHTMARE


She ran a comb thru her dark hair as he'd be home soon from work. The meat balls were simmering in their gravy and she mashed the potatoes and put the rolls in the oven. A fresh baked rhubarb pie sat off to the side on the cupboard.

As she sat the table, she heard the baby wake up and her husband's car both at the same time. He liked to pick him up from his nap when he could so she let him. She heard him talking to Zack as he changed his wet diaper. Baby talk, so sweet......

They came into the kitchen just as Biscuit walked to his water bowl; now all of her favourite 'people' were in her sunny, happy kitchen.

He put the baby in his high chair and passed him a favourite book while he came over to the stove to kiss her. "How long before supper?" he asked. "It's ready, honey." she replied.

As they ate and chatted about their day, the baby was given some finger foods to keep him satisfied until he was fed later. And Biscuit sat patiently waiting for he smelled gravy and knew his dry dogfood was about to get better!

The baby fed, the dog's stomach happy, the kitchen cleaned and a pie waiting to be eaten later with their hot coffee; life was good.

She laid back in his arm's while he watched the News; she drifted off to nap, knowing his ears and eyes were guarding their son. She was at peace, at home, in love.

Later that night, after having their baths and eating their dessert, he strummed his guitar for her while she painted her toenails. He walked their dog and locked up the house for the night. Together, they checked on Zack and covered him up, his little bum stuck up in the air. Biscuit slept in the baby's room & was snoring softly beside his crib.

The big featherbed welcomed their tired bodies but they were not sleepy. He pulled her on top of him and they kissed. His hands ran over the heat from her body and they lay entwined, whispering.

The moon shone in their window, the stars winked at them and she fell asleep in her paradise. And she dreamed that she was a woman, a wife, a mommy........but when she awoke, she was in her late 60's!

Nighmares can be quite lovely........and so she fell back to sleep, curled up tightly in her fetal position, a book beside her pillow from the night just past.

When they found her, she had been dead over two days and yet, a smile was still on her face. Folks wondered why but 'he' knew; and he smiled back as he stood alone by her grave. Maybe someday he'd bring his old guitar and play for her and her alone......."I'll bring you a daisy a day, dear....."

ADDICTION

ADDICTION


As anyone who knows me (even a little bit) can tell you, I am addicted. It happened gradually and has been present in my life for at least the last twenty-five years. Some days are better than others. Often, I can go days and nights without it but am not as happy as when I am indulging.

Of course, I'm talking about my love of books. It all started with comic books when I was a wee lass. I then graduated to my school books which I spent all summer anticipating. I loved the hardness of them, the colored pictures, the small fine print.

As I matured, I relished magazines about movie stars and singers, always dreaming of looking like them some day. Or fantasizing about a certain man who was famous, rich and totally unattainable. Elvis Presly was my ultimate fantasy!

I also fell in love with any man wearing a uniform and even today, am thrilled to see men in their Military, police and fireman's uniforms.

The first long, hard covered books I read were 'Heidi' and 'Lassie'. I knew then that I was hooked on books; the addiction would last a lifetime. I usually read each book just once but have re-read 'The Bridges of Madison County', 'Dr. Zhivago', 'Anne of Green Gables' and 'Ol Yeller' many times. 'Gone With the Wind' is almost memorized in my mind!

I don't recall how I began to love to read only non-fiction books. While others were pressing their noses in a romance novel, I was reading a true-crime book. It was embarressing to admit, but I liked reading about how a family formed and fell apart in a matter of months or years. To murder one's own spouse or lover and the resulting trial and conviction.........

These days I am reading primarily biographies and autobiographies, the most recent one being 'Marilyn Monroe'. What a beautiful and charismatic woman! A 'Willie Nelson' book is on my desk and awaits me as a dog awaits a bone. Like most things in life, the anticipation is half the enjoyment.

I've tried reading those self-help books but can't seem to even get through the first chapter. I believe that people who do not visit their local Libraries are missing out on the best of experiences. All that knowledge and entertainment for free! I wear glasses to read so am thrilled to find 'large print' books. I don't use audio books as I'd rather read them myself and when I'm driving my car, I always listen to music, my other love.

When life seems to be passing me by or I am disappointed in what it has to offer, I can always depend on my books and music to keep me company. I often fall asleep with a book in my arms; thoughts and dreams all night long of the people inside it. I know it will be waiting for me the next day; it never disappoints.

Winter time is the ultimate reading time for me. As I finished 'Edith's Story' (a true story of a young Jewish girl who, like Anne Frank, kept a diary during her hiding in World War 2), I was shocked and happy to realize she survived to publish it. It opened my eyes to what truly happened in my own lifetime and must NEVER happen again.

On this strange last day of February, Leap Year day, if I didn't have a book awaiting me at the end of my journey, life would not be as sweet. I read the newspaper online and my Bible after I wake up. But knowing a book is waiting there is like a favourite dessert after an expensive meal. No more, no less. And I thank God for my sight and my brain. Without them, I'd never have met Anne and Heidi and Lassie and the Bobbsey Twins and Marilyn...........

Saturday, February 23, 2008

ON OUR OWN

ON OUR OWN

It's so good to know he loves me
To see him now & then
Like a sun-drenched rainbow;
And it's nice when he surprises me
With a gesture or a gift
Before he has to go.

But I must make it on my own
For we both really know
He belongs to someone else;
Even though we care so deeply
And when he's in the room
My heart completely melts.

I can't give my whole self to him
Or promise him a part of me
For our future life;
Nor can I share my body & soul
With someone who already has
A true & loving wife.

The nights are long without him
The days all seem the same
No plans can we make;
Every time I see them together
Even in my mind
I feel my heart begin to break.

So I must make it by myself
And search hard for another
Who'll also be alone;
Maybe then I'll stop dreaming
Of men who have wives
But can't make it on their own.

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

KARISSA'S LULLABY


Karissa's Lullaby


Softly the snow falls on your grave
Adding a new lovely blanket for cover
Gently the wind keeps you company
They are your sister & your brother.

Soon flowers of spring will scent the air
And warm rain will wash clouds away
The little birds will surround you there
This is your family now, every day.

The sun will shine so bright sometimes
The moon will watch over your rest
The stars will twinkle just above you
These are your cousins, from east to west.

The ducks will waddle on the new grass
Deer may stop by now and then
A rabbit or squirrel will sit and nap
These are all your new best friends.

This town knew you well and loved you so
It breaks their hearts that you had to die
They'll visit often; surround you with love
Welcome back home; hello, not good-bye.

Saturday, February 16, 2008

CHRISTMAS IN JAIL

CHRISTMAS IN JAIL


It had been a long, hard year and now that winter had arrived, it seemed to last forever. He wasn't used to the Northern temperatures and didn't own warm clothes. But it was warm inside the Pub where he worked nights making fast food and serving drinks behind the bar.

The boss closed and locked the doors early for their annual Christmas party where the staff got to mix & mingle for an evening of good times, free food and all the alcohol one wanted.

He hadn't taken the time to eat properly as he was primarily interested in making tips these days. It was his goal to get back into school to complete his college education. The free spirits hit his empty stomach very fast and it wasn't long before he had a good buzz going.

A few dances, a few jokes and lots of spirits later, he passed his car keys to his boss and said "See y'all tomorrow, boss; I'm walking home."

"Well, ok but don't freeze to death. Merry Christmas!"

With head down to avoid the cold, he walked quickly, aware that he was staggering a bit. Soon he'd be home and in his warm bed; one of his room-mate's may have already left for his parents home down South for the Holidays. But Karl should be home tonight.

He approached the door but found it was locked; damn, he didn't have his house key as it was with his set of car keys which he'd given to his boss. He knocked and knocked and as he began to get very cold, he yelled "Open the damn door!!"

Realizing that he may be yelling to an empty apartment, he decided to break the glass around the front door knob. Surely that wouldn't cost much to replace later; better than freezing to death! As he broke the glass with a small rock, he was just reaching inside to open the door with his numb hands when the Cops pulled up.

They grabbed him and handcuffed him and threw him in the patrol car. There must be some mistake! He was charged with burglary and God only knew what else!

Apparently, he had attemped to enter a young lady's apartment instead of his own. Her boyfriend and she thought he was going to rob or harm them and called 911. The apartments were close together and the doors looked identical.

For the very first time in his life he found himself in jail. He was allowed one phone call but was not allowed to call information to obtain anyone's phone number. He could not recall either one of his parents numbers and too, they were both long distance.

He tried to call his room-mate's cell but as he was away, he had it turned off. He did manage to leave a message on their apartment answering machine; but no-one was there that time of year.

No-one knew where he was! Christmas came and went as he sat in a crowded, dirty cell with a bunch of criminals who hated him.

Meanwhile, his parents were frantic with worry. His mother lived out of the country and started calling all of the hospitals emergency rooms close to where her son resided. Nothing was found and no-one knew a thing.

It was the very worst christmas of his and her lives. She hoped, since he was 22 now, he had met a chick and gone to her home for the Holidays. But in her own heart, she knew he'd never avoid his Mum at Christmas. She wondered if he had received his box of gifts and money.

His dad, who lived down South, was also worried sick but both felt helpless. Their son's cell phone was silent. They didn't even know the name of the establishment where he worked.

New Years came and it became unbearable inside the jail. Threats were made; his food was stolen; he became filled with fear and anxiety. Christmas day passed without any hope of survival.

He went before the Judge and asked for a court appointed attorney. He had no way to post his bail so was returned to jail. It was overcrowded and old and loud; he was so cold, so hungry, so scared. It was Hell!

When he finally heard from his room-mate who had returned to their apartment and retrieved his message, he asked him to find his dad's phone number to alert him to where he was. Weeks had now passed; they were frantic.

His mother took the news the hardest and it almost killed her. She immediately called the room-mate to ask about the amount of his bail and borrowed the money to spring him with. He walked out of jail after what seemed like a lifetime.

His lawyer was a good one and he was able to keep it off his record; the only fine was to pay for the broken glass.

She hopes her son learned a lesson. One cannot live their lives for them but it still hurts deeply when one of our own is in such trouble with the law.

As far as Christmas, there wasn't one for that family that year. But she remembers the relief she felt that he was NOT dead; jail she could accept and she thanked God it wasn't worse. And she is eternally grateful for her relative's loan of money.

Alcohol has never been and never will be on her lips and she prays it will be off her son's, as well. Four years later, maybe it already is; all she can do is pray.

CHOICES

CHOICES


You say that you can't comprehend
Someone who's like me
That you would just as soon be dead
Than be a divorcee;
You ask what it's like to be
Alone all of the time
And how do I keep smiling
And seldom ever whine?

You want to know what it's like
To eat alone at night
And don't I ever feel afraid
When I turn out the light?
You wonder what I do all day
In this house all alone
And when darkness falls around me
Do I pick up the phone?

Well, I am here to tell you
That I also question you
And wonder why it is you stay
When you are always blue;
You sleep apart in separate rooms
You watch TV alone
Midnight calls are always you
When I pick up the phone.

You hate to cook his supper
You say he's never clean
You dread his advances once a month
And say he treats you mean;
You ask me how I manage
To always make ends meet
That you must have his money
To have a bite to eat.

Well, I'd sooner eat bologna
And drink water which is free
As long as I am happy
As long as I have me;
Yes, I always sleep alone
And wake up with my dog
But you lie there by yourself
And stay inside the fog.

I've already been where you are
And I won't be going back
You can wonder all you choose
But it's a plain fact;
My house is my warm home
Your home is just a house
I'd rather live all by myself
Than be you with your "spouse".

I can play my music loud
And take my bath all night
Read into the morning hours
Before turning off my light;
I can go anywhere, anytime
Or stay in bed all day
I can take a lover
Say what I want to say.

You ask me what I'm doing
On next Saturday night
Play a game of solitaire
Turn on TV to watch the Fight?
I guess I haven't told you
But I've a plane to catch
It's off to Vegas for awhile
Wanna place some bets?

I bet you that I will laugh
And sing myself to sleep
I bet I'll dance and I'll make love
While you sit home and weep;
I have to pack some dresses now
And sexy lingerie
See you soon, you be good
And I'll be back someday.

Friday, February 15, 2008

EVEN THE SNOW CRIED


EVEN THE SNOW CRIED


1979 in Roswell, Georgia broke with a sense of relief; soon we could leave the 70's far behind us. The 80's looked promising and brought an expectation of health, wealth and a euphoric New Year's Eve.

But life has a funny way of changing things quickly and this year was no different.

I celebrated my 31st birthday with that warm-fuzzy feeling in the first month of 1979. So far, so good. But a nagging fear lingered in the back of my mind as when I had called home to Nova Scotia at Christmas, I discovered that Mum was not able to keep any food down. She was just 72 years old.

The call came on my birthday from my oldest brother that our mother had been diagnosed with terminal cancer of the stomach. The verdict was worse; three to six months left to live.

Never again would our Mum play her beloved Church organ, lead the choirs in song and praise, write poems, bake bread, play cards, etc.

I spoke with her on the telephone to assure her I was coming home as soon as possible and she seemed happy about that. I had many things to do in preparation for the journey as I wanted to stay until the end.

My thirteen year old daughter bid her many school friends good-bye as I left my job as an Insurance Adjuster; our furniture stored away, our dog left with friends. Delta was ready when we were.

I remember the flight like it was yesterday. We landed in Yarmouth and my oldest brother picked us up. The land was frozen and brown, not a snow flake in sight. I had not seen snow in years and was disappointed but had more serious things on my mind.

She lay in a bed downstairs in the living room and it still hurts too much to write about it. All I can share with you is that I left her side with-in 15 minutes to go upstairs, drop to my knees and pray to God. I asked Him to take her from us now; it was late on March 2nd. that I sat beside her bed, watching her sleeping, holding her cold hand.

She died early Sunday morning, March 4th. at 4 am in the Shelburne Hospital with four of her children present. It broke our hearts to lose her but I thanked God above for answering my prayer.

As we walked out of the hospital carrying just her clothes and her Bible, I noticed it had just started snowing. And it snowed the twenty minutes it took to reach our house, big, soft snow flakes falling down from a dark, sad sky. Frozen rain, drops of grief.......

Hearing the news given to my father from upstairs (by my brother), broke our hearts again. Soon, at daybreak, I called our Minister who arrived shortly, then he broke the news to the congregation. "Lena Gertrude Watson Mundell" had died. And they cried....

Even the snow cried.......

Soon it will be March 4th again and though 29 winters have passed, I still watch for snow on that date. They say no two snow-flakes are alike. In comparison, no-one is like my mother. She was like the snow-flake's.......one of a kind.

As I walk to their graves in the Barrington cemetery, snow covers them like a blanket. My parents are resting there where I'll join them at some unknown future date. I see the prints from deer and animals and know they have had some company of late.

As I leave sometimes, it is snowing; and I smile as I walk away. God is good!

Thursday, February 14, 2008

"75, PLEASE?"


"75, PLEASE?"


When growing up in Barrington, Nova Scotia, we may not have had electricity or indoor plumbing or running water but we had a TELEPHONE. It was black and hung off the wall space between our big kitchen and the living room; it had a short cord and offered little to no privacy when talking.

Our old house was heated by a solitary wood stove in the kitchen, so it was situated near a warm place.

One had to be tall enough to crank the handle of the phone to place a call. I was not tall so I would first have to pull over my little red stool to stand on. It didn't matter if I knew the phone number or not because the Operator would be willing to put the call through to whomever.

I'd crank the handle, a voice would say "Operator", and I would say "Gramma Watson, please". I really loved talking on the telephone but didn't know who else to call.

When I got older, I'd ask for "number 64, please?" That was my cousin's number; I also knew Dr. Wilson's number was "69". Of course, our's was 75.

We had a private line which cost a bit more but my father was a very private man and didn't want people listening in on our business.

When we wanted to know where the police or firetrucks were going, all we had to do was call the Operator. When our phone rang, we'd all rush to be the first to answer it. If it was for one self, we each felt so important.

When the dial system was installed, it seemed strange to not have to go through the Operator and wasn't nearly as much fun. Plus, one had to memorize 7 digits for each phone number, instead of just 2.

Now, in the year 2008, one knows who is calling before they pick it up and if they choose not to, an answering machine will take the message. One can carry a cellular telephone and receive and place calls all over the world at anytime; take photos, send text messages, etc.

"75, please?"

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

Grandma Cutt's Wanderings

This is a rather lengthy story but a true one about my late, great ancestor written by my late, great grandpa. If you like history and have a good sense of humour, you will appreciate this.


"GRANDMA CUTT'S WANDERINGS"
OR
"A LOYALIST PIONEER"

Note: This was a competitive Shelburne County, Nova Scotia story, written for the Montreal Witness in 1889 by my great grandfather, Thomas West Watson and concerns his great grandmother. There were eleven competitors and this one took the first prize----namely 5 volumns of "McCauleys' History of England"----


Our heroine, Margaret Coupar was the daughter of Andrew Coupar of Fowling Hill, near Aberdeen, Scotland. She was born on the 16th of April 1746---on the day of the great battle of Culloden, and was one of eight children.

Her father was born on the 10th of March 1701, and where this account commences was overseer to a Mr. Andrew Kene of Dyce Hill and had charge of a large estate.

When she was 18 years of age, Joseph Fletcher, belonging to an English regiment stationed nearby, fell sick of a fever and she was engaged as his nurse. This intimacy resulted in a love affair, and resolved upon marriage. When her father became aware of this circumstance he immediately expressed his disapproval----and some warm words ensuing----he even forbade her his home if she persisted in her foolish resolution! But her determination was fixed, and when afterward, the bracing air of her Highland Hills had brought health to the once wasted form of her lover, they pledged a new fidelity to each other and awaited their time----the opportunity soon offered------the regiment removed to Banff and thither she went also. A letter with a messenger from her father was dispatched with speed to entreat her to return. He arrived all too late, and her reply to his entrieties was----

"I did na' marry Joe to stay behint his back"!

From Banff the regiment was ordered to London, and she sailed away from the "Land of brown heath and shaggy wood"---never to see the "Land of the Mountain and the flood" again!

She remained in London until 1776. We need not stay to describe the excitement or pleasure produced by meeting new friends in London, in the home of her husband, where we know she was ardently entreated by his sister to stay with them while Joseph went to war. They met with the same reply as her father had done before. So in that year, she, with her two sons born to them there, followed her husband with a vast convoy of British troops to New York. We must pass over with silence the voyage from London to New York for the reason that we possess no knowledge of it, only we know that one was made. It is now that a real exciting experience occured, and one that the writer has often listened with interest to hear his grandfather tell.

After their arrival, in some manner that we cannot now state, Joseph Fletcher and a young medic named Alexander Watson (tho not both at one time) was taken prisoner of war, and they were both lodged in one cell or room in some place of confinement, at or near Albany, now in the State of New York. There was a number of prisoners in war, and it was the practise for squads of them to go out in the wintertime into a cedar swamp nearby, with hand sleds, in order to procure fuel.

These squads were always attended by guards, armed to the teeth! Fletcher and Watson had laid a plan for their escape if possible. They always went out prepared to carry it into execution, and on several occasions attempted their maneuver, but as yet had been unsuccessful.

The time came at last, and they managed to wander quite a distance away from all the rest, there in that place. The guard followed them up; they adroitly decoyed behind a thick clump of low cedar bushes, and watching a favorable moment, like a Bengal tiger, Watson made the attack, and seized the guard from behind, and in an instant Fletcher, like a CATAMOUNT, pounced furiously upon him, and with the ready gag, stopped all outcry or alarm. He was quickly divested of his weapons by these giant sons of Britain and instant death was set before him upon the unconditional alternative that he should proceed in whatever direction they should indicate to him with all speed. With this condition he readily complied, and the captured American guard, and our two British heros, flew as best they could through the tangled forest, away from their pursuers (if any such attempt ever was made) in a direction toward the nearest British Army.
But now their real difficulties had commenced: principally among these were hunger and fatique, also besides these there was a want of knowledge of the country, or proper direction of the shortest route.

In a short time after the flight their hunger became unsupportable, but to run into any farmhouse upon which they did occasionally struggle, or even to be seen by any unsympathetic American who might be hailed, would be sure to result in their recapture and possible death.
However, a few berries of some kind (winter tho' it was) were found in their way and eaten, and once or twice a visit in turn was made in haste to the poultry yard of a farmer, by night, while the other stood guard over their captive!

After several weeks of anxiety, exposure, fatique and intense sufferings, they were rewarded by first beholding in the distance, the light of the glimmering watchfires by night of the British Camp, and in the course of the folowing day came upon the out pickets on duty.

Before encountering THEM however, they generously gave their Captive his choice to go forward with them a prisoner of war, or turn back and seek relief in whatever way he deemed best. His love of native land and liberty was greater than his present miseries and Alexander Watson and Joseph Fletcher never looked into his eyes again.

Alexander Watson now made his way tp New york where his abilities, his loyalty, his sufferings and losses, aquired for him the honorable and lucrative position of "Ward Master and Purveyor of His Majesty Military Hospital of Vauxhall."

Joseph Fletcher rejoined his comrades in war and shortly thereafter in an action, fell mortally wounded. He was taken to the rear and his wife saw him breathe his last. It will not require a very lively imagination to picture the trouble and distress of our Canip following Heroine!

A fugitive from a stern, but considerate father---alone----with her sons in a strange land in the throes of a bitter Rebellion----now known as the War of the American Revolution! Indeed her troubles had but commenced.

The sons sickened and died shortly after and burying them out of her sight, she retraced her steps to the Great City where she had first landed.

Upon her arrival in New York she obtained a situation as nurse in the Vauxhall Hospital. Here she remained during the long years of that eventful war---caring for the sick and wounded, and witnessing the pains and recoveries, as well as the dying struggles of her brave countrymen!

After the death of Mr. Fletcher, no doubt the intimacy that had existed between them, and the almost miraculous escape of these two men, brought Fletcher's widow and the Ward master of Vauzhall into contact and sympathy: this ultimately ripened into a warm union of hearts, and in 1779 they were married. He was also a native of Scotland, having been born in Easter Place, Parish of Old Monkland, Lanarkshire, 4th of November 1750.

In 1780 they had born to them a son whom they called Samuel, and in 1782, another son, whom they called Henry. She had also, in her altered circumstances, written her now aged father and received his reply March 18, 1781. Her letter must have been good news to him! In his he replies:---

"Dear Margaret! You was the only child of my regard above the rest of the family, which hath made me spend many hours in bitterness in your absence, but it hath renewed my spirit to once hear of you being in the body, seeing I have received no letter from you these five years."

She had therefore last written her father upon her leaving London for New York. He continues:
"You will remember I wrote after you to Banff to return and would have regarded you as much as ever. I would be more glad to see you now, if it were possible! We was much concerned for the death of your husband, but seeing God hath been pleased to remove him and engage you to another, may the Lord enable you to perform the vows you have taken upon you in such a station."

HAPPY RECONCILATION! Affliction and love had brought " the only child of regard above the rest of the family" and the imperious, but affectionate Parent, in spirit, together, but the foolish resolution of a young and inexperienced daughter had doomed them to separation forever! In October 1781 Lord Cornwallis surrendered to Washington at Yorktown and the weary, unhappy war was really tho' not formally ended.

Two anxious years followed that eventful October. It was soon learned from the negotiations going forward at Paris, that the friend of Britain had little to hope for.

The disregard shown by the newspapers of the articles of Peace, and also by threats from Committees formed in the different towns, were such that showed the victorious Whigs were determined to make it impossible for the United Empire Loyalists to remain in the Country with advantage or safety, and measures were taken by thousands to find a home and protection under the British flag in the loyal Provinces of the present "Dominion of Canada."

On the 28th day of April 1783---18 square rigged ships and several sloops and schooners, containing 5000 souls, all conveyed by two ships of war, sailed form New York with the British Ensign at the Masthead, bound for the ancient French Port Razior known to our loyalist forefathers as Port Roseway on the south west coast of Nova Scotia: and on the 4th day of May cast anchor in the spacious harbour of the Shiretown of this County. In August Governor Parr arrived from Halifax, and amid the booming of cannon and the general rejoicing on ship board and on shore, he gave to the new town the name of "Shelburne"!

Trees were felled, streets laid out and in September the place presented the appearance of a city amid the surroundings of the forest primeval! The same month---September---8,000 Loyalists left New York to settle in Nova Scotia and New Brunswick, 5,000 of whom were destined for Shelburne among which latter was our Grandma Cutt, her husband and their sons. They arrived safely after a stormy voyage. History relates that of this last 5,000 to arrive, owing to the lateness of the season as also from the character of some of the emigrants,many were UNWELCOME visitors.

Respecting this particular family, I have before me an original "Certificate of its Head"---which I copy verbatim---:

"New York 8th September 1783"---
"The Bearer---Alexander Watson, has from my first knowledge of him----about three years ago, behaved himself as a loyal subject, and from his sufferings and losses in the course of the Rebellion, is most justly entitled to every advantage and involvement accruing to His Majestys Suffering Subjects.
(Sgnd.)
---S. Birch, B. Gen"---

Mr. Watson paid 100 guineas for a town lot on King Street and drew as a grant 400 acres of arable and timberland on the east bank of the Clyde River (now owned and occupied by the Gibson family 1889). After obtaining this title, Alexander decided to dispose of the town property and to remove his family to the side of that river that bore the same name as that near by the side of which his youth and earlier manhood had been spent in Scotland----

For this purpose he repaired to the "Clyde" property and was busily engaged in preparing for the reception of his family, who were still in Shelburne. But Providence had otherwise determined---he took suddenly ill of a fever and died there, where he is buried upon what was then his own land. This occured in the fall of 1784. He was aged 34 years. Thus in one short year from her landing, our loyalist Grandma Cutt was again a widow!

It now seems certain that she wrote her sister Elisabeth Coupar--in Scotland and acquainted her of the death of her husband, and also generally of her affairs, and as will appear later on in this account, two separate letters were sent in reply, but if received no trace of any such letters are now to be found.

She now determined to leave Shelburne and so took her two sons and sailed to Halifax to take the Packet to Nassau, New Providence in the Bahamas for the purpose of keeping a boarding house there. Alexander had a brother residing there with his family which doubtless accounted for this decision. In some unaccountable way---tho' probably owing to the skurry and confusion at the pier in parting----little Henry was left behind---his mother not knowing the fact before the ship was on her voyage in the harbour! She, with tears in her eyes entreated the Captain to set her and her son on shore, but without avail, and she was forced to go the length of the voyage not knowing what the fate of her youngest son might be!

When the Packet returned to Halifax, Grandma Cutt and her son Samuel took passage also, and her great joy upon their arrival to find her lost child at the home of a lady friend, who had cared for him in the absence of his mother, can be best imagined than described.

She now made her way with her sons from thence back again to Shelburne, where she set up an Inn on Harriet Street and kept travellers and boarders many years.

On the 1st day of August 1793, Samuel Watson was at school in Shelburne. He was at that time 13 years of age. On that day Joseph Harding, Esq., Tanner and shoemaker, came on horseback from Barrington, where he resided and did business, for an apprentice to his occupation. Having learned of Samuel, he approached the mother concerning the matter----she gave consent, provided "Sammy" was agreed. Mr. Harding called for him at the schoolhouse and together they went to the boy's home. There a conference was held and finally agreements entered into.
Together they returned to Barrington where Samuel faithfully served his Master until he was twenty-one years of age--in 1802.

If we would rightly and honestly understand and appreciate the course of these events, we should bear in mind the one great all absorbing principle that brought these people from New York to settle in this then wild wilderness country---that of attachment to BRITISH INSTITUTIONS and loyalty to KING GEORGE 3RD.

Now previous to the settlement of Shelburne by these Loyalists, Barrington had been settled as early as 1760 by 60 to 70 families from Cape Cod and Nantucket, and so strongly were the sympathies of those people that when the Declaration of Independence in 1776 was made, a great many of those settlers left all, to take up arms on the American side. Mrs. Watson, tho' residing in Shelburne, kept a pretty stricy survellience over her son Samuel in Barrington, lest he should be tainted by the surrounding "half Yankee" population of that place.

As he grew older she had arranged to suit herself who he should marry. She fully intended that as soon as his trade was learned to have him quickly remove to Shelburne with her. This young woman was a Miss McNutt. The shoeshop where Samuel worked was an excellent place to hear politics, and Mr. Harding, tho' not a Republican, was a firm believer in the most advanced Whig doctrines, and a very shrewd and intelligent man. Also Samuel soon began to see right through what a Loyalist Tory was, and from that time wished to get as far away from them as possible.
Meantime, Henry now 16 years, secured employment as Clerk and Salesman with a merchant in Halifax and immediately entered upon his duties there.

At Shelburne Mrs. Watson had formed the acquaintance of Mr. John Cutt, a Loyalist and native of her own Aberdeenshire and shortly after Henry's departure they were married and continued to reside in Shelburne.

She was however destined not to enjoy his companionship a long time. John Cutt died in 1799 and she was a widow in one year from their marriage.

Now she turned her thoughts to Scotland and wrote to and received a letter from her sister there, from which I give the following Extracts:

"Higg, near Aberdeen 1799---31st August
Dear Sister:--
I received your letter from Shelburne 22nd May 1799 with inexpressable pleasure. You and I are the only children left of our worthy Father, and long have I looked for notice from you. About 15 years ago, after you was the widow of Mr. Watson---I sent you two separate letters, caring for them to ship in Britain as well as I could, but have never 'til now got any letter from you. Blessed be God that at last I know of you! And now, if Providence favour, I hope you will endeavor to make some intercourse, by writing at proper times between us---the only remains of our Fathers own house."

Here follows a lengthy detail of family affairs and I quote only this:

"Our Father died at Fowling Hill nine years ago on 25th September."
He thus lived to be aged 89 years 6 months and 15 days. The closing portion of this letter will I believe interest you, and I quote at length:

"How are you in your worldly state? When you wrote last, at that distant time, you seemed to be in easy circumstances. I hope you are so now. I am glad that your two sons by Mr. Watson are living and respectably following useful employments. Offer my good wishes to them. Your last husband---John Cutt---has lived with you but a short time! Do you design to end your days where you are, or to revisit us and your native land? I would be GLAD to see you! Accept my sincere and warm wishes for your well being. Write me soon and direct to the care of the Rev. Dr. David Cruden, Minister of Higg near Aberdeen----
Yours 'til death
Elisabeth Coupar

Soon after the death of Mr. Cutt she broke up her house at Shelburne and went to her son in Halifax. But her trouble and berevements were not ended yet. Henry soon began to show symptoms of consumption, and at the age of 19 years sickened and died. Samuel had this year 1802 attained his majority, and a few years afterwards married Esther, daughter of Josua Nickerson 2nd (whose father Joshua was the framer of The Old Meeting House in Barrington.)

This marriage was a blow to our Grandma Cutt, chiefly that he had chosen a wife of a New England Whig family. Naturally of an impervious and unyielding nature and pretty obdurate and fixed in her opinions, she let her son feel her displeasure in a variety of ways and she continued to reside in Halifax alone, occasionally lamenting her lonely lot to the sister in Scotland and receiving her condolences and sympathy in reply, all of which letters she carefully preserved and which at this writing are still extant.

In 1812 Samuels wife died leaving three sons and one daughter---Henry---Alex---Margaret and James. (Henry the eldest was but seven years old at the death of his mother.) Mrs. Samuel Watson had not been long dead, when he went to Halifax on purpose to see and persuade his mother to make her home with him.

In her advancing years and better judgement she was quite severe and rigid at times. She kept in stock a goodly number of birchlings, ready for use. it was no part of her policy to "spare the rod and spoil the child"---but when, in her judgement occasion required, she made a free tho' judicious use of it. She would not permit them to SIT at the table, but have them STAND, remarking--"Tae sit wud mak em a 't soft." Neither would she allow them to partake of the heartier food set before "Aulder folk"----asserting that "partitch" was aye suited tae bairns like thal!"

If inadvertantly the boys entered the house without first having removed their caps and carefully hung them on the hooks in the Hallway to the room where they sat, they were no more than fairly inside when they were sure to hear her exclaim---"Eh! Eh! Laddies, ye'll sit in the chimney corner 't the 11th day of June wi yer caups on!" She spoke in "Guid braud Scotts"----

Her wanderings and many of her troubles in life were wholly due to her disobedience in youth to parental authority and should sound a useful lesson to the youthful readers of my humble tale! Grandma Cutt belonged to the Establishment Presbyterian Church of Scotland. She died 25th March 1825, and was buried in the old Puritan Churchyard in Barrington being aged 79 years eleven months and 9 days.

Peace Be To Her Ashes! T. W. Watson
Feb. 15, 1889

Love Is......


LOVE IS....

(Love is many things to many different people; this is about the love between a man and a woman.)


Love is the longing to lay in his arms when the rain is beating against the windowpanes.

Love is lying in bed on a snowy, Sunday morning, listening to him hum or whistle while he's making our favourite pecan & blueberry pancakes, bacon and hot coffee.

Love is having him open my car door and after seeing me safely seat-belted in, gently closing the door.

Love is passing him a soft, hot towel from the clothes dryer as he steps out of the shower in winter.

Love is having him take my clean, bare feet onto his lap (on a soft towel) while he massages foot cream into them.

Love is watching our favourite TV shows together in a recliner built for two.

Love is modeling my new outfits from Frenchies for him before anyone else sees them.

Love is picking blueberries together when no-one else is in sight for miles.

Love is planning some day-trips and week-end jaunts for when we retire.

Love is climbing back into bed on a winter's morning and knowing he will often be waiting for my return with the expectation of early morning loving.

Love is taking a picnic lunch to the seashore and laying back on an old quilt, watching the sea, the birds, the clear blue, sunny sky and feeding each other juicy grapes, potato chips and buttery pieces of lobster.

Love is doing the dishes together, making our bed, cutting the grass, pitching the tent, building a fire, setting the table for company, laughing at new jokes, strumming his guitar, reading my stories aloud, sharing and caring.......

Love is an unexpected love-note in his fishing tackle box or golf bag or guitar case for his pleasure, saying something like "Have fun but save some energy for me tonight, baby."

Love is holding each other's hand at a funeral, in church, the movies, dancing, walking....

Love is listening to the sound of silence together........seeing only each other in a crowded room......feeling his presence even when he's gone.......longing for yesterday when he was still here.

Love is going to the Cemetery on Valentine's day with our dog to leave a single yellow rose and whispering "I love you."

Love was you and me; love was 'us'.

Love is..........gone........

Monday, February 11, 2008

FROM THE BOTTLE TO THE BIBLE

FROM THE BOTTLE TO THE BIBLE


He said "If I was a bettin' man
I'd betcha fifty cents
That there's a bottle in that paper bag
Down there by that fence."

The Preacher kept on walkin'
Never lettin' on he'd heard
They walked a little further
Without another word.

The church stood proud and stately
The bell rang loud and clear
The Preacher took the pulpit
While his son prayed for a beer.

The road so far had been hell
But they'd both got through it
What they'd lost along the way
Everybody knew it.

They said "That boy's just like his daddy
What he's reaped, he'll sow!"
None of them could yet forget
As they watched the young man grow.

'Twas years ago the Preacher came
With wife and baby son
People thought it very strange:
A Preacher with a gun.

She made excuses all the time
Why she was not in church
It wasn't long before they knew
The truth behind the hurts.

Sunglasses couldn't hide her bruises
Smiles didn't hide her pain
"Enough's enough" she wrote in her note
Before she ran away in the rain.

The Preacher drank for two long years
While the youngster watched in shame
Then one day all the bottles stopped
Replaced by the Bible which took all the blame.

He cursed his God, he cursed his wife
And he swore not to drink anymore
Then he preached down from the pulpit
Like none had done before.

Years passed; they both grew up
The Bible was their best friend
But the lad was his father's son
And he'd inherited his every sin.

He said "That was a great sermon, Dad
I'll see you in awhile"
And as he started home alone
The boy began to smile!

There was the fence close to their house
And he hurried to open the bag
The bottle held a fifth of gin
He wished it was beer...a keg.

Then he saw his mother's Bible
Left in the rain & the wind
He threw that bottle towards Heaven
And it never came down again!

He felt his daddy touch his head
And they knelt together to pray
The boy had become a man
On this the seventh day.

He said "If I was a bettin' man
I'd bet you fifty cents
God placed Mom's Bible with the rum
Down there by that fence."

That night he dreamed of Bibles
And a little church by the sea
A baby boy of his own
God and his own family!

Sunday, February 10, 2008

INEZ

INEZ

The year was 1970 and we had just moved into our first 'farm' house in Crabapple, GA. My husband was a fireman and our daughter, an only child, was in elementary school. He worked at the fire station for 24 hours at a time, every third day. I was at home alone all day and felt stranded, at times.

So I decided I wanted to drive and take him to work so I would have transportation to run errands, etc. But he said no, because I would never learn how to drive a stick shift which was what our new Ford was.

I walked down to our Landlady's home one hot summer day to help them pick okra and beans from their huge garden. These folks were rich; he imported Charlais cattle from France and Montreal; they owned a popular and successful bus line which traveled all over the USA.

Their maid was a sweet black lady who commuted to their farm from Atlanta. Since there were no busses to Crabapple, they had purchased a car for her use.

We all called this car "Inez" as that was the Maid's name. On this particular hot Southern day, I asked where their Maid was and was told that she had quit due to family illness. I asked about the car and it was then they asked me if I was interested in buying it.

I knew that my husband did not want me driving anything. He had jokingly told me that any extra money I saved from grocery shopping, fabric shops, etc., I could save for anything I wanted or needed. It was a big joke between us as he thought I didn't know how to stretch a penney but he had forgotton that I grew up poor.

I bought Inez that day with the money I had saved and Mr. Hughes, our Landlord, drove it to our double carport and parked it before giving me the key and a receipt. I was so proud!

I'll never forget the look on my husband's face when he arrived home from work the next morning. "Who's here?" he asked. I replied "No-one." "Well, who's car is that out there?" I answered "Mine." All he said was "Well, don't think I'm gonna teach you how to drive it."

So it was that my best girlfriend, a school teacher, taught me after school. And at the ripe old age of 24, I was tested and passed for a GA. driver's license.

Shortly after that, I went to Sears to pick up an order of fabric to make some clothes and heard of a part time sales position in their catalogue department. I soon had my first job but was home before the bus dropped our daughter off.

The Landlady dropped by one morning as I was hanging out clothes to say the 'farm' we rented had been sold and we had to move in 30 days. But she went on to tell me how she thought of me as her daughter and wanted us to look for a new house to buy; they would pay for it and we would all sit down to work out a payment plan.

So we found and purchased our first new house with a fireplace, a full basement, air conditioning, etc. And we never even had to make a down payment.

Inez lasted a long time; she was a red 1964 Ford Falcon with a choke; I loved her! I've owned a few nicer, newer cars since then but still think it was the cream of the crop. God bless you, Jake & Jane Hughes!

Tuesday, February 5, 2008

Mr. Patterson



MR. PATTERSON
It was the Fall of my 59th year when I met him. He didn't have alot of hair and he wasn't very tall. When he smiled, he didn't have all of his teeth. With knitted brow and a slight Elvis Presley lip, he studied me and finally, gave me a half-way grin.I didn't realize it right away but I was smitten with him, immediately. We held hands and smiled; we made eye contact and I knew......this one was different; this one was special.
As we spent more time together and grew to build trust and contentment, we also became friends. He was easy to love.He was fascinated with birds outside the window pane; he loved to be outside in the snow. Not afraid of animals, he especially loved dogs. Music and the love he has for books, will content him in life if and when all else does not.
He used to like to hear me read aloud so I read to him every chance we got. I like to sing so when he heard me humming to myself, I noticed he would move his body to the sound of the melody. He'd smile with that 'almost' toothless grin and we shared a bond. It was Christmas and so we sang many happy holiday tunes.
The weeks turned into months and at the end of the third month, I knew it was time to say good-bye. He was moving away to another province and distance would dictate our fate.
It was a very cold, snowy Sunday when I last saw him. As was our usual routine, I held him close to me as I read and then sang some of his favourite songs. I began to weep, quietly and silently as I sang one last song "You are my sunshine".
As I saw his beautiful eyes begin to close in slumber, I wanted to awaken him. I wasn't ready to never see those eyes again, looking at me with humour, intelligence, respect and love.
But he was fast asleep in my arms. I softly kissed his warm cheek, put his pacifier in his mouth and gently laid his tiny body down in his crib. Then I covered him up with his soft, baby blankets, shut the door and walked out of his life."Hutton" was just a baby but for a few months, he was mine.
"Good-bye, my precious one; I love you, Hutton Patterson."

Hutton's World



HUTTON'S WORLD


There are kids and there are people
To me, they were all the same
That is, until I met a baby boy
"Hutton Patterson" was his name.


With knitted brow, a slight grin
He looked at this new girl
His arms reached out to take him
Welcoming me to 'Hutton's world'.


He loves to play out in the snow
Or 'read' his favourite books
Skip a page or try to rush
He gives those 'Hutton" looks.


At first I wasn't even sure
That I'd like being there
'Cuz the day I saw that rodent
I sat with feet up in a chair!


I never will forget the time
I went next door to tan
Steven went to bat for me
When they told me I'd been banned!


I accidentily left my chewing gum
On their hot tanning bed
And when Steve played interferrance
"The Cops were called" is all he said.


Three months made such a difference
In Hutton's days and nights
He went from drinking formula
To saying "snake" and "kite"!


We sang songs each night and day
"THE FARMER IN THE DELL"
But I can't say that I will miss
Singing him "JINGLE BELLS"!


Robin once said to me:
"Steve calls this place a dump!"
Well, I guess he liked the mattress
'Cuz now Robin has a 'bump'!


When I finally saw their Play
"WHITE CHRISTMAS" is the name...
I saw such raw, enormous talent
Hut's parents, rich with hard-earned fame.


Now the time has come to part
As they all move far away
I will miss them very much
I'm writing what I can't say:


"Every time I drove downtown
It was to spend my time with you
Thanks for all the fun we had
For all the loving too."


"Others may watch your son
But I'll just ask our God
To bring him a healthy sibling
And maybe, a small dog?"


"So thank you Steve & Robin
From the Nanny, the old girl
For the shine you added to my sun
When I lived in 'Hutton's world'."

Friday, February 1, 2008

Camo (May 25th, 2007)


"CAMO"

I know that he is just a dog
But those who know me well
Can attest to the fact
For him, I'd go through Hell;
For he is not an animal
So much as my best friend
And I would fight for him
Until the very end.

Tomorrow is his birthday
And I'm all he has in life
He'll never be a daddy
He'll never have a wife;
Once he had loving parents
And siblings next to him
He sees me as his whole world
Though his eyes are growing dim.

We live alone, he & I
And depend on one another
He snuggles up to me
When I crawl in the covers;
He waits for me to get up
And then we start our day
No matter what I say or do
He's never far away.

So "Happy Birthday, Camo"
You are eleven now
I pray you'll live 10 more years
But God, I don't know how;
I'd be so lost without my mate
I'd just stay in a fog
You'll always be my number one
Faithful, loving dog.