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Halifax, Nova Scotia, Canada
"On a windswept hill by a billowing sea, my destiny sits and waits for me".....R Brout

Tuesday, September 30, 2008

IN MY WHITE HOUSE


IN MY WHITE HOUSE

I heard a song on the radio
About a blue house painted white
It must have been a sad house
Oh, what a pitiful sight;
Then I thought of my very own
And wondered what he'd do
If he could live in my house
In my white house painted blue?

Would he still be missing her
The one he sings about?
And could he stop his crying
And live without a doubt?
Or would he guess, correctly
That I'm still missing you
While playing my ol' radio
In my white house painted blue.

I heard his song and wondered
If his blue house painted white
Hugs him close as mine does
And hears him cry all night?
Maybe he should burn it up
Like memories I've burnt of you
Then maybe he can live with me
In my white house painted blue.

GOD KNOWS I TRIED

GOD KNOWS I TRIED

One wonders as one ages
If they have tried their best
To be a friend to others
And an ear for all the rest;
One asks if they were there
For friends who were in need
And if they cared enough
Should a loved one bleed?

God knows I tried
To be a friend to all
To answer the telephone
Should they ever call;
To pick up the tab
When they could not
And to give them a hug
Or offer them a cot.

One worries that it's not enough
One questions one's own self
Should I bury pride
And put it on a shelf?
No-one but God is perfect
Easy to make a mistake
Should I turn the other cheek
When friends turn out fake?

God knows I tried
To be a good friend
Right from the beginning
Until the very end;
But it takes two to tango
And I guess it's best
To let some friendships die
And let them lie in rest.

God knows I tried......

Monday, September 29, 2008

IF YOU WERE ONLY MINE

IF YOU WERE ONLY MINE

She wipes a tear and wonders
Where he might be tonight
And she wishes it was with her
To make everything alright;
She whispers into the darkness
As the cuckoo clock strikes nine
"Oh, what fun we'd have
If you were only mine!"

"I would keep you smiling
As I just love to tease
And I would make you happy
As I so love to please;
I'd love you Sunday morning
And late on Saturday night
And in between the hours
I'd hold you very tight."

"I'd buy your favourite ice cream
I'd cook your favourite pie
I'd wear my birthday suit
At the wink of your eye;
You'd never have to worry
You'd never feel too blue
I'd keep us very busy
Just by loving you."

"You'd never be too lonely
We'd always touch and feel
Each other's naked bodies
Head to toe and heel;
I'd tickle you if you frowned
I'd share my last penny
And if you cried a teardrop
There wouldn't be very many."

She blows her nose and worries
If he is doing ok
And she wishes on a star
To chase her blues away;
As prayers are said on her knees
The cuckoo clock strikes ten
God knows that tomorrow night
She'll do it all over again.

Saturday, September 27, 2008

OUT IN THE BARN

OUT IN THE BARN

As a small child I used to hide
Behind my mothers long skirts
And as a child often will do
I recited old, familiar verse;
"Hiawatha" was much too long
"Casey At the Bat" was too
But out in the barn, alone in the hay
I made up my dreams of you.

The hard, bitter rain would fall
Onto the tin, fragile ol' roof
The shadows hid my small frame
And my blossoming youth;
I made believe you were there
Out in the barn, close by
And as I laid in your arms
I almost could see your eyes.

Out in the barn, all alone
I'd play and pretend sometimes
That you would listen to me
Reciting all of my rhymes;
But I grew up and realized
Dreams seldom come true
So I'll go out in the barn
To try to remember you.

Perhaps I'll find you waiting
Ready to hold me tight
Perhaps you'll be everything
I need to make things right;
I lay in the fragrant hay
Though your face I cannot see
Out in the barn, my eyes
Cry for what cannot be.

Thursday, September 18, 2008

LETTER FROM HEAVEN

LETTER FROM HEAVEN

God said: "What are you doing, my child?"
As I scribbled on some plain, lined paper
He treated us all in the very same way
The homeless, rich, crippled & leper;
"I'm writing to all my loved ones
Who still dwell on your earth below,"
And as he touched my dark brown hair
He asked: "If I'd send you back, would you go?"

He walked away while I thought it all over
And it didn't take me long at all
To know just where I wished to live
But how I wished that I could call:
Each one below to reassure them
How perfect and serene this feels
Living with Jesus my Saviour
Watching Him work as He heals.

But then I thought of my family there
Down on that place called Earth
The land where I first learned to love
The wonderful land of my birth;
I missed my friends and my neighbors
And a very special dog and man
My heart ached to hold them both
Then I felt my Saviour's hand.

I wrote down " How I miss you, darling
And I wish we were still together
But I'm so happy to have just been told
God promised to deliver this letter;
I know you won't think that it's true
But I hope that you will believe
In miracles and in the power of prayer
And that this last letter's from me."

I watched as an Angel swooped it up
And as it left for it's destination
I thanked God with all my heart
It was cause for a big celebration;
I washed His feet and he just smiled
As we worshipped in Heaven together
Soon the Angel returned on wings
Having delivered my letter........

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

THAT I MISS YOU TONIGHT

THAT I MISS YOU TONIGHT

The yellow moon follows me
As I walk the city streets
He follows me inside a bus
We pass the folks in their seats;
He gets off when I do
Still so full and bright
Somehow, I think he knows
That I miss you tonight.

He walks me safely home
And as I find my keys
He's still hanging there
When I get on my knees;
I close the shade so he can't see
Me cry myself to sleep
And when I wake up tomorrow
He'll never know I weep.

Now the sun is laughing
As it keeps me company
I feel it's hot breath
Aimed straight down at me;
I swim alone at the shore
Wiithout a soul in sight
Until I tell the moon again
That I miss you tonight.

The moon & sun protect me
But the stars are like no other
They wink at me like you did
When you were my lover;
They all seem to guide me
All shining new & bright
They know without me saying
That I miss you tonight.

And I just wanted you to know
That I miss you tonight.

Saturday, September 6, 2008

FLIGHT 217

FLIGHT 217


The rain beat hard against the window pane as she sat with a cup of hot cocoa, looking out. It reminded her of that long day when she suddenly felt old all at once and life seemed so unfair. She lit a vanilla candle and sat back in her lounging chair..........

It had been raining for days on end when she climbed into her car to head to the airport. Being just 22, she was through college and was enjoying life to the fullest. Now she was flying to Connecticut to join her fiancee who was waiting there for her. They were going to spend a long week-end together, skiing and swimming and just being on the water. She had bought a new bright, yellow 2 piece swimsuit and knew she looked hot in it!

The airport parking lot was jampacked as she parked her red sportscar and rode a shuttle bus to the airport gate. Her umbrella helped a bit and she found herself sharing it with a tall, dark & handsome stranger.

When they had both checked in for their flights, she was pleased to discover that he was on her's, flight # 217. They sat together inside a coffee shop near their gate and he lit her cigarette. This was long before smoking was banned as it is now.

His name was Zack O'Connor and she introduced herself as "M" Fitzpatrick, though her real name was Emily. All of her friends just called her M.

"So, M, what takes you all the way from Ca. to Conn.?"

She found herself not wanting to tell him that she was engaged to marry the man who would be meeting her plane in a few hours. So she just said "Well, I'm going there to jet ski with some friends; hang out for a few days. I just graduated University and need to let loose for awhile."

He told her he was a music teacher in CA. and was on his way to a Seminar in New Haven, Conn. They sat across from each other, smoking and sipping their martinis. He saw that she had a dazzling smile and laughing eyes to match.

After an hour they heard their flight being annoucded & they walked toward the gate. But the plane was being delayed for two hours so she found a pay phone to tell her boyfriend the news. His answering machine took her message as he had probably already headed to the Conn. airport to meet her.

Zack said that he had no-one meeting his plane so he was content to wait with M and continue their new friendship. They had so much in common. They were both "an only child", both were single, smokers and athletes. They loved all kinds of music but jazz was their favourite.

"Whats' that perfume you're wearing?" he asked her. "I really like it!"

They walked outside the airport together, him holding her umbrella for them. She felt him holding her elbow as they crossed in front of some traffic. Everywhere they went, the women were looking at her with envy; she was thrilled!

They decided to eat as the plane wasn't leaving anytime soon; apparently, a mechanic was going all over it again. She would never be able to eat the same food ever again without tears. It was 'chateaubriand for two' with huge baked potatoes and fresh garlic bread. They toasted one another with a sweetened iced tea and he smiled at her white teeth & brown eyes.

Back inside the gate, the airplane was just commencing to board. They stood together in line and noticed they were seated just one row apart. He was hopeful of trading places with who-ever was her seat mate. He had decided he'd pay someone just so he could sit close beside her, get her phone number, ask her to go out.......

She remembers thinking how nice, attractive and intelligent he was; a great listener with a wonderful sense of humour. Could it be that she wasn't ready to be someone elses wife? Maybe she had more wild oats to sow yet.......

An announcement was being made over the intercom. Delta was asking for volunteers to take a flight that was leaving just 20 minutes after this one. They were offering a future FREE round trip ticket to anywhere in the USA as an incentive. It seemed they had oversold this first flight to Conn.

"I should do this." she said to Zack. "I can use a free ticket at Christmas time to visit my parents back in Mass."

"Well, that's very nice of you but I was hoping to see more of you once we get to Conn."

"Listen, here's my phone number at home." What was she thinking? She was engaged! But all she knew at this point was she HAD to see Zack again. They had some special chemisty going on like she had never experienced before in all her 22 years.

He turned to hug her as he left for flight 217 and she lifted her mouth to his and spontaniously brushed her soft lips against his. When they opened their eyes, all she recalls him saying was a tender, emotional "M".......

In a flash, he was gone, carrying his briefcase full of music books and her phone number. Her heart rushed and she sat down by herself, touching her lips.

Soon, her flight was announced and she was given a free pass to use with-in the next 12 months. She knew his plane had already taken off but still she looked in the skies for a glimpse of the aircraft. All was quiet out there and she pulled down the shade & fell asleep. Her dreams were happy and filled with a sense of excitement and chills went up & down her spine. Zack!

When her plane landed, they were rushed inside but not before the glare of cameras caught her attention! Was there a celebrity on board? A politician? What was happening? She tried to look for her boyfriend but Security rushed all of them inside a secured room.

It was then she heard the horrible news. Flight #217 had not made it to Conn! It had gone down into the Atlantic Ocean and there were no survivors! A Chaplain began to pray.......

She was stunned, in shock! Zack! Oh my God! Her fingers touched her lips and she felt his caress; she saw his dark, sexy eys. And she burst into tears!

As the Media swarmed her, asking how it felt to be alive when by all accounts and purposes she should be in the cold waters below, she hid behind her dark glasses, refusing to answer. It bewildered them and they followed her to where she had arranged previously to meet her friend.

He was just so happy to have Delta tell him she was on a later flight, that he was crying too. She let him hold and hug her to him while she collapsed inside his embrace. He thought she must have been so relieved just to be alive!

They married that Christmas Eve. in Mass. and when their first child was born nine months later, it was a boy. She had never mentioned meeting her 'heart-mate' at the airport. Somehow, it would have diminished what they had shared to tell anyone about it. She thought of him often and hoped that somehow, he knew.

As she sipped her cocoa now and watched the falling rain, her eyes filled with fresh tears for what had never been and could never be. She saw her husband's Cadilac pulling into their garage and heard their son getting out of the car.

"Hi, Mum, what's for supper?"

"Hi Zack; we're having chateaubriand and baked potatoes with home-made garlic bread. Come give me a hug."

And the rain stopped.......