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Halifax, Nova Scotia, Canada
"On a windswept hill by a billowing sea, my destiny sits and waits for me".....R Brout

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

O HOLY NIGHT

O Holy Night




'Twas the night before Christmas
When all thru the town
People were saddened
Wearing a frown;
His birthday was coming
But the people had hurts
For they had no hope
Since they had no church.

Memories of yesterday
All filled the cold air
Like Mr Brown's choir
Mrs Morrell's hair;
Beautiful church bells
Heard all around
We were so proud
Of our new choir gowns.

Sunday school moments
We all do recall
Laughing and learning
Just having a ball;
Waiting for Sundays
What we lived for
Living for Jesus
As we opened the door.

My father rang the bell
Kept the books too
My mother played the organ
When it was brand new;
People came and worshipped
Love was in the air
We sang aloud together
And never had a care.

'Twas the night before Christmas
When the church was dark
No bells were ringing
Just a dog's lonely bark;
The building was quiet
Not one little light
Teardrops in Barrington

'O Holy Night.'

Saturday, October 22, 2011

OCTOBER MEMORIES

OCTOBER MEMORIES

People said it wouldn't last
That in no time at all
You'd wear out your welcome
Or you'd become my 'all';
The years flew by too swiftly
Suddenly you were gone
My heart felt so empty
But one must carry on.

You always loved me back
No matter what took place
And we became best friends
Talking face to face;
Never once let me down
Never turned your back
Loved me to hold you
Snugly in my lap.

Your face was so handsome
As you protected me
When the doctor had to
Replace one of my knees;
You never left my side
Did you, Camo dear?
And I could only scratch
You behind your ear.

Now you're gone forever
Somewhere up above
I won't get another dog
They won't have my love;
Days like this I want to
Walk you in the park
What I'd give just to hear
One final, lovely bark.

I pray that God will grant
For us to meet again
You will recognize me
By my big, wide grin;
Until then, my baby
Sleep and rest awhile
And I will never forget
How you made me smile.

Wednesday, September 7, 2011

LONGER THAN

                                                "LONGER THAN"

Sunday morning dawned bright and beautiful as I started the sabbath with prayers for both of my children who live far away and are going thru difficult times trying to secure employment. I especially prayed for my daughter and asked God to hold her hand today and to let her feel some peace from this part of the globe.

My neice, who owns the house I was staying in this weekend, had asked me to sort thru the dozens of cassette musical tapes and to keep what I wanted while placing the remainder in a box. I decided to start this project while waiting on another neice who was accompanying me to church.

After sorting thru so many of them, I was about half way thru when I had to stop, due to time and my back aching. I was still thinking about my children and hoping church would help ease my mind.

I reached into the discards inside a huge box, pulled out one old cassette to pop in my cassette player while awaiting my ride to church. Without my glasses on, I had no earthly idea what it would be.

Suddenly, the tape began and immediately I heard the voice of a songbird, surely an Angel. It was my daughter at aged 21 singing for her Aunt's wedding in 1986. I was there that special day in Georgia and remember her beautiful blue gown and matching long gloves. But I had no idea the ceremony or the music had been recorded. My late brother had it in his collection of music.
As I listened to her beautiful voice with perfect pitch and flawless diction, I cried. What a marvelous talent! It was Linda Ronstadt's "Longer Than" and was every bit as moving and romantic as Linda's own rendition.

Surely God gave me this special gift on His sacred morning. I felt renewed joy and peace and somehow, my worry left me for a serentity that has stayed with me almost 48 hours now.

When my Pastor asked if we had anything special to share with the congregation, I wanted to share the death of my sweet Camo and the miracle I had just been given that morning in the kitchen. Instead, I just thanked Him who makes all things possible.

Thank you, God.

Thursday, August 25, 2011

GOODBYE, MY SWEET LOVE

GOODBYE, MY SWEET LOVE


Many moons ago you came
Into all our hearts
Bringing lots of laughter
With your woofs and barks;
You once were carsick
But we worked with you
First by sitting in the car
Our garage, your only view.

One day we paid to have you 'fixed'
You wobbled upstairs alone
No babies would ever come
None you could call your own;
You got a brand new wallet
Your health insurance card inside
And we would smile and pray
That you'd never have to die.

One hot day you almost did
We never found out why
You were one sick puppy
The doctor did not lie;
But you got well in just 3 days
The bill, two thousand dollars
But Insurance paid almost all
& we bought your new red collar.

Your home phone number added
To the tag around your neck
In case you should take off
As you jumped off of our deck;
Oh, how we all loved you
Your nose would nudge our knee
Begging for another walk
To have just one more pee.....

We saw your eyesight fading
We knew you could not hear
And yet it was impossible
To think the end was near;
It hurt so much to lose you
To dog Heaven up above
I wrote this just to say to you
"Goodbye, my sweet love."







Monday, July 25, 2011

I'M NOT ASHAMED TO LOVE YOU

I'M NOT ASHAMED TO LOVE YOU

The radio plays the newer stuff
And tho that's fine and good
And they're selling millions
To white neighborhoods;
I know it's not cool to say
Old music beats the new
But I'll go first and admit
I'm not ashamed to love you.

The lyrics cause me to reflect
On days from long ago
When I was young & foolish
Or feeling mighty low;
Those older songs grab my heart
And make it beat anew
They bring a tear to my eye
I'm not ahamed to love you.

Older now but often wiser
Those words still ring true
Kris, John, Waylon & Willie
Old Hank and his son too;
The ladies sing for gals like me
About cold love gone wrong
It causes me to tremble
In each & every song.


No, I'm not ashamed to say aloud
That I love country songs
Loud and long and often
About who done me wrong;
Local talent or Nashville
Sounds the same when I'm blue
Hear me loud and clear,
I'm not ashamed to love you!

Saturday, July 16, 2011

THE MAIDS

THE MAIDS


The year was 1967; I was just 19 years of age. Nova Scotia seemed like a century away as I waited for the big, noisy city bus. Atlanta was a bustling, prosperous place and I felt excited to be part of its new growth. We lived just 20 to 30 minutes north of the city in an affluent town called Sandy Springs, saving our money to buy a car.

We were both from the old school and paid cash for everything or did without.

The bus stopped and I climbed on board to sit in the front row. I noticed, as usual, that all of the black folks were seated down back. They no longer HAD to but chose to; maybe from habit? Fear?

Most all of the people on the bus headed to Atlanta after 4 pm were "Maids" who worked for white families. They looked hot & tired & sometimes nodded off. Usually, they would have one or two large bags of 'stuff' from the white houses they worked in. I would see whole chickens and fresh vegetables from a garden as well as many fresh watermelons and peaches.

As the old, smelly bus headed towards Atlanta, each stop would be to pick up middle aged black women, some still in their Maids uniform. They seemed to all recognize one another but seldom spoke aloud.

I sat beside such a woman once and she smiled back but wasn't having any part of my conversation. I picked up my book to continue reading and she said "Waz dat you studyin' ?" I told her it was a novel but she just looked at me with a blank face. It was then I realized she probably couldn't read.

All up and down the streets where the bus'es traveled, women waited patiently. Some had to transfer to other bus'es in order to get to their homes or apartments. I overheard a lady tell another that she caught a 4 am bus in order to get to her white lady's house by 7 o'clock when she had to prepare their breakfast.

If one were to take away all of the Maids riding bus'es, there would not be any need for more than a few bus'es. The bus would be so full, there was standing room only by the time we reached Peachtree St. The women stood holding on for dear life with their full bags of goodies between their legs.

This was before pants on ladies and so they all usually looked alike in a black or white uniform, heavy shoes and often, a hat.

If one were to be on the roads in the morning, one would see no-one at the bus stops in our neighborhood as they would all be getting off a bus from Atlanta. It was completely opposite in the afternoons with many black women waiting for their bus after a very long, hot day at work.

Once, I had my little girl with me and she saw all of them on the bus. We sat down and in a loud voice, she said: "Look at all the chocolate people, Mommie!!" Fortunately for me, they smiled.

As we continued to live in & around Atlanta, Georgia, it was common for the black Maids to have a vehicle provided by the white family. When my Landlord's Maid had to stop working, I purchased her car from them. They always called that car by her name "Inez" so I did too. It was a 1967 Ford Falcon....

These ladies were strong, hard workers who loved the white "young'uns" that they cared for as if they were their own. I like to think it was returned by the children. After caring all day for a white family, they had to return to their own homes to do the same work there.

I heard the name "Inez" recently and I half-way expected to see a red ford falcon......memories of another time, another place.........

Friday, June 24, 2011

GRADUATION

                GRADUATION
 
Watching a small lad of five
Graduate from pre-school
So proud and so excited
Now he's no-body's fool.
 
I watched as his mom & dad
Smiled from ear to ear
Cameras in hand with kleenex
To wipe away their tears.
 
It took me back to yesterday
When, I, too came alive
In our school's closing concert
Back when I was five.
 
We didn't receive diplomas
Nor wear a cap and gown
No h'orderves to choose from
No-one then wore a frown.
 
No-body took our picture
We walked home together
The end of June, under the moon
With our father and mother.
 
Today I saw step-parents
Half sisters and half brothers
Children seemed so confused
Too many dads and mothers.
 
I'm glad for a simpler time
I was just 5 years old
And had the world around me
With daddy's hand to hold.
 
Now I'm near 3 score and 10
And my time is nearly o're
How I long for yesterday
To be five just once more.
 

Thursday, June 16, 2011

In Memory Of.......

I heard myself whining again today
Not enough weight loss or money
My hair too thin, my cheeks too fat
I wished I had less of a tummy.

I looked at my calendar and grimaced
Recalling how I sat by the sea and cried
When two years ago I answered the phone
"I'm sorry to inform you your sister has died."

She used to complain of her weight too
And her hair just never looked "right"
She dreaded company most of the time
Wished aloud she could just take flight.

But I never had my home burn down
And I never lost a baby
I never had an abusive husband
Who treated me less than a lady.

And I never had a daughter who passed away
Nor a boyfriend who died much too soon
And I didn't suffer effects of polio
Living as if I was in a cocoon.

My sister lived three score and ten
God gave her two more long years
My heart used to break wide open for her
As she confided in me thru her tears.

Her courage, tenacity and humour
Kept me loved and feeling needed
Since her death I have learned
My whining is silly; it goes unheeded.

We walk thru life, one step at a time
Put one foot in front of the other
Jean did just that, all of her life
She's a Hero to her sisters and brothers.

We miss & love you, Hed

Saturday, May 21, 2011

YESTERDAY

Where has yesterday gone?
I ask as I drive all around
Unfamiliar faces, all in a hurry
This once was my old home town.

A drive past the movie theatre
Where so many week-ends were spent
A walk by the old grocery store
Where we spent our very last cent.

Looking for cranberries down by the beach
Or for clams that are now illegial
Memories of our Sunday School picnics
Still make me smile or giggle.

Waiting for the McKenzie Bus Lines
One could wait now forever
Or watching the ol' train roll on by
Knowing it won't happen again...ever!

Dancing at midnight at a street dance
Or hitch-hiking a ride back home
Parking out at the old tree yard
Always with friends; never alone.

No little road-side restaurant
To walk with pals for a hot-dog
No little "Hat Shoppe" to search for
A hat to wear in the thick fog.

Where has yesterday gone?
Where are the cars from the States?
No bus, no train, no ferry
They call it progress & blame it on fate.

Saturday, January 29, 2011

HE'D BE SEVENTY ONE

HE'D BE SEVENTY-ONE

The month of January is both bitter-sweet
In a cold graveyard, his life all undone
I have a birthday, but my friend stays asleep
If he hadn't have died, he'd be 71.

He loved to laugh, he loved to drive
He had looks and talent and brains
Might even have been an Astronaut
Or an inventor of electric trains.

Before he had a chance to fall in love
Or marry and have some kids
Before he had traveled to see the world
His time was up & he was dead.

He'd now be a proud grandfather
A retired fisherman or in a band
Sailing to all the places he dreamed of
Or keeping his feet firmly on land.

I blow out the candles on my cake
And think of all he might become
As I make a private, silent wish
I think to myself: "He'd be 71."